It has been nearly a year since I last wrote something on this Blog of mine and a LOT has happened while I was away. Some of the top stories are:
- I did my GRE and TOEFL exams well
- TCS offered me a job (which I promptly decided to decline)
- I’m learning to play the Guitar
Oh and I fought with HER on the 21st of March and it has been 6 months (and counting) since I last spoke to HER.
As I sit at my desk at 1 AM in the early morning listening to Shreya Ghosal croon Aaromale (Oh, my Beloved), I am reminiscing scenes and situations in my life. I realize that I have ALWAYS had a conversation with her in my head everyday, for the past six months and even though we have not spoken to each other, I subconsciously “talk” to her.
Well, a blog post is supposed to be about things that have influenced you in some way or experiences that have left and indelible effect on your life. One such is SHE and feels weird to write this post with no real substance in it except for Love. Arguably, Love could be the heaviest and substantial subject. I can’t judge, I am writing this.
My best friend, says she’s happy for me. She’s happy that my life will go very well because of all that I have worked so hard on. She says she likes the fact that I’m growing day by day and that I am finally going to stop loving her and move on. Oh, how I love that little ninny!
I don’t know about that, honestly! I can’t say, I can’t foresee the future!
I don’t know because SHE taught me taught me to live Life to the fullest degree possible. That I must live in the present and put my best foot forward for the future. LIVE in the present.
Her sister got married to the guy she loves during the first week of September. My congratulations to the both of them. I wish them a blissful life, lots of coitus and cute babies!
I still remember HER telling me the dates of the wedding and not being certain about the venue, as clear as a bell. Funny, how I always remember stuff related to HER.
She’s had her trials too over the past few months. She had an arrear last semester and she was despondent for a few days (noticed that by her body language). But, I knew she would clear that subject (‘DAA’ or summat). Grade jumped up by one. Yes, I found out she had an arrear and about all the other stuff even before she did (Gosh, the Internet’s magical!)
That female, she’s resilient and she jumped right back on the horse 3 days later. Hahaha, I still remember her strutting into the Cafeteria, O.D. form in hand, on a Saturday – the same week as the declared results!
Rebellious and a perky girl! Full of Joie de Vivre! That’s why I admire HER!
I’ve changed from a blithering fool to a responsible, lucid fellow. I’ve upped the grit and joy to pursue my goals in my Life! I’ve stopped being a little pessimistic (I kept questioning things) and turned into an Optimist. A Polyanna, if you will!
I am scared though. Everybody else’s life is either replete with love, happiness and the satiety of acquiring a job offer. My battle to fight for a place at a prestigious institution will begin! THAT is something I WANT BADLY!
I’ll need lots of Luck and Dame Luck, she’s always smiled upon me. I’m not that worried because I KNOW SHE will help me through it all, even if we don’t verbally speak to each other.
I’ll ALWAYS be there for HER, in her time of need. I’ve told her that many-a-time and I guess she never took me seriously. She might not, even now, Haha!
I’m there. SHE only has to turn and face me!
I’ve prayed and still pray to God for HER, everyday, for the past one and a half years! I have not missed even a single day and I am proud to say that!
I pray that she has a good day the minute I wake up.
I pray the seconds before I go to sleep.
I pray that she learns to show her affection even more clearly, that she communicate better and to trust implicitly.
I pray that she become less selfish, egotistical and attitudinal.
I pray for sweetness, kindness and warmth.
I pray to God to help me reduce my own inherent bitterness.
I pray that I understand her better! - Haha! I’m praying right now!
Wow! Now that I think of it, I’ve noticed how mature I’ve turned out to be! Over the past two years, I’ve left the idiocy and bitterness and I find myself on some threshold level.
Hands on my hips, face eager and eyes widely observant, I look forward to Life!
And, it’s implicit and doesn’t have to be said that I love HER dearly and I miss her very much!
